reality.truth.eternity
after i dropped elle off at school and got in my car i welled up with tears AGAIN!!! why? she is so happy so excited about kindergarten, why can't i stop crying. as i drove home it hit me. what is happening inside me is the Spirit drawing me to Himself. this experience of elle in school is HUGE for me. so huge that my heart is traumatized by it. God is using this experience to show me His control - over time, over age, over creation. that truly HE IS THE ONLY THING TO HOPE FOR!!!!! i do not have control over elle...i never have. i do not have control over anything except keeping my eyes and heart focused on Him. i am realizing the Spirit inside my soul has deeply missed the Lord Jesus Christ. for the past 5 years i have mostly lived off my past relationship with God. but that is not truly a relationship at all. Thank you Jesus for showing me what life is about - YOU. not family, not my job, not my youth, not my goals, not my vain imaginations. YOUR Glory - alone. Thank you Spirit for your sweet tears, i recognize this is Your longing for eternity. I know my longing to be with elle all day is just a glimpse of how You long to commune with your Father. I am ready, ready make the switch back to You. To you be the Glory!!
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AMEN!! I am feeling that VERY nudge right along with you!!
I realized this same thing yesterday as I dropped off Brooklyn. I sat at my house alone and did not know what to do. Over the past week of Emma being in school, God has reminded me that my girls belong to HIM. He has entrusted them to John and I while here on Earth, but they belong to HIM. He is in control and now it is my turn to really trust their lives over to HIM. It is a good lesson to learn, but one that is hard and is going to take some time.
Thank you for being so open! I have been going through this exact thing! This week God has really shown me that I have put my boys before Him. It is hard to let go, but hey, I haven't cried once today! Taking it day by day.
B, this is good stuff. Great perspective. I should bookmark it and read it again for when Thomas goes off to Kindey next year.
Deep breath, sister. You're doing great.
brooke,
i'm so proud of you. thank you for sharing your heart. as the other ladies have also expressed, i too am in the same boat. He is drawing us closer to Himself and it's amazing what He will do to show us.....hard or not, He will get all the glory. i'm so glad He knows our hearts...
Brooke- thank you for sharing this. Amazing truths for moms to remember.
putting my hope in the LORd alone is something i have been saying daily recently..so many things remind me that i'm not in control..but its hard to have victory..i'm glad(although i know it hurts) that these are the things your taking away..and i know..every monday is hard to start over -mar
Beautiful...and so true...I want to read that everyday. Thanks.
SPROTT!
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